Its all down hill from here

the past month, ive become much more serious about photography. ive decided to post 2 pictures a day. one portrait of myself and one of a different nature. im am amature photographer, and i would love any advice any one has. so feel free to leave comments.
i am starting today!

for the first time in like a month i finally feel good about other people. i was seriously starting to lose faith in all of humanity! i finally feel good about my self as well for the first time in a long time, i think that everything with THE boy is finally going away, i havent had any parent problems since may, i know that doesnt sound like a long time, but when u live with my mom and step dad, it is a miracle, and something has happened in the past week, and i think i can forgive him. i've moved on(almost), although it was hard, and he is increadiby cute, i think im finally over it and ready to start over. maybe we can be friends? also im starting to have faith in guys again. for a loooong time i didnt, and thought that they were all out to screw u over, and some of did, but i think i found someone special, even though thats what i said the last time. i think im gonna follow my instincts and see what happens. who knows he might be amazing!

GOODDDDD, things have been happening to me lately. Family has been giving me a lot of money, and i discovered an american apparel outlet, which just may be the most amazing thing ever!!!!!

BADDDD, my wisdom teeth are growing in


GOOOODDD, im leaving to austria on monday, it will be nice to get away from boyfriend drama for 2 weeks. but of course ill be with different friends, so... that might be worse, and there will deffinetly still be some drama, but maybe not involving me this time. im gonna try my hardest to not get caught up with all of the boy drama, and just have fun with my friends! and maybe make some new friends!

BADDDDD, i cant take a carry on item on the plane said the chaperone, which is unfortunate, cause i have to pair up with one of the guys in my group and put girly things in their bags!!!!!!!

GOOOOODDD, i got new sunglasses, jeans and a scarf,

GOOOOODDD, i found 4 snickers bars in my room and that my friends is a true miracle!!!!!

wow there are too many good things to write about that has happened the past few days, but those are the only bad things that i canh think of.

just letting u know after monday morning i wont be on for 12 days


LOVE LOVE LOVE,

TONIS

the past 2 weeks about i havent been able to sleep at all!!!! and when i finally do go to sleep, its time to wake up again, i think i slept a total of 40 min last night, and im pretty delerious. its BADDDD. (note its 3:00 in the morning and im wide awake) does anyone know what to do???? i dont know how much longer i can last with out sleep. i feel like im goin crazy and i have no control over my life anymore, thats how tired i am.

also on a ligher note, im leavin in 4 days to austria!!!!! so im excited for that, but im tryin to catch up on my sleep before then



HELP MEEEE!!!! i really need some sleep soon...

in the past 48 hours, ive had my heart broken twice
and just in case he's reading this,
i think it was a real shitty thing of you to manipulate me like that, if u didnt like me, you didnt have to lead me on like that, i honestly thought we had something speacial, and i thought u were different than other guys i know, but, u are just like every single one of them, so go to hell

as of today, actually like 5 minutes ago, i have discovered some awful news,
so if any of you have a cure for a broken heart, please let me know because right now it feels like somebody took my heart, and dumped it into a bucket of boiling tears. and at the same time somebody else is hitting my soul in the crotch with a frozen sledge hammer. and then a third guy walks in and starts punching me in the grief bone and im crying and nobody can hear me because i am terribly, terribly, terribly alone (refrencing the office always makes me feel better, although it did feel like that when i first discovered this) xox TOnis

im having this horrible dilema! i cant see if the notes that i drop actually
get posted and i also cant see any notes if i click on main as of after
this morning! so if they do get dropped can u tell me please!
thanks
xoxo
tonis